A Smidge More Testosterone Probably Wouldn't Hurt Right About Now
Yet, as much as I love the female form in all its variety, I have to admit, there is one little part - well, maybe not such a little part - of the male anatomy that is just so darn hard to replace...
The arms, you perverts. I'm talking about men's arms.
Today was Day One of my intensive new workout program designed to increase my muscle mass and get some muscle tone in places where I am lacking it. My previous approach to working out was a little too focused on the losing of a certain spare tire to the disregard of other parts, including and especially my self esteem. As I don't want to take the Lindsay Lohan/Nicole Richie route to thinness, I've shifted my energy to lifting weights, which makes me feel strong and empowered rather than as if I'm wasting away.
And oh, have I ever made a shift. I left the gym this morning ravenously hungry for protein, and now I'm so tired I could fall asleep at any moment. Also, my finger bones ache. Which is a little strange, but hopefully that's normal.
I won't bother to try to impress any of you with how much weight I can lift. Let's just say that it will be a number of years before I can upload a video of myself bench-pressing TCGIAOD. As far as my triceps are concerned, though, suffice to say that, in a pinch, I could lift a newborn baby or perhaps a frozen turkey overhead using them. So the next time you need a frozen turkey (or a baby) thrown to you overhand, you know who to call.
That said, I didn't actually work on my triceps today. I worked on my biceps, which proved to be a challenge, mainly because it can be difficult to find weights that are light enough to lift more than once without resorting to running down to the convenience store for a couple of cans of peas. I finally managed by removing all of the plates from one of those crooked bars, whatever they're called, and did some curls with just the bar. At one point, the gym ajusshi tried valiently to help me find some plates that were light enough for me to add to it, but as I was already becoming fatigued, I had to give up and switch to the even smaller hand weights.
And I have to admit, I felt really excited and proud when I reached that point of muscle exhaustion where your arm just refuses to curl any higher and any attempt to force it to do so results in a wild bout of muscle shakes and quivers. The fact that I reached that point lifting a mere 7.5 pounds was only slightly mortifying.
That was roughly around the same time that I looked up and saw a guy pick up one of the barbells I had discarded as unfathomably heavy and begin doing a rather nimble set of bicep curls in front of the mirror. He had those quintessential guy arms. They were about as big around as my thighs and looked like loaves of challah bread, except more so.
I suppose at that point, most girls would have giggled and swooned, and perhaps at another time, I might have too. But this time, to my surprise, I felt an odd surge of jealousy. I looked down at my own skinny little arms. My bicep looked like someone had shoved a small dinner roll under my skin, except not even a nice fluffy, buttery roll. Rather, more doughy and undercooked. I flexed it as hard as I could, but I couldn't get more than a moderate swell. There were no clear delineations between muscle and tendon and vein and bone, as the guy in front of the mirror seemed to have. When he flexed, it was like he was popping the skin off his arm and showing all its inner workings.
Before I give too much credit to testosterone, though, I did once know a woman who had arms like a guy. One day, she let me feel her arm after one of her workouts, and indeed it was round, rock hard, and well defined.
But don't get me wrong. I love TCGIAOD's arms, which are probably even less muscular than my own. I like how the skin is always soft and cool, and how they look just so in her little shirts with the puffy shoulders. I wouldn't swap them for anything. But that said, running your hand along a really muscular arm is an experience unto itself.
Maybe it's a good thing, then, that I'll probably never have arms like that. I'd probably never leave the house and would just hang around all day, lifting things overhead and stroking my own muscles in front of the mirror. I wouldn't be able to proofread articles or blog anymore, either, since my muscular fingers would no doubt stab right through the keyboard and into the surface of the desk. And we certainly couldn't have that, now could we?