i say, "boy, you betta hold on tight."
we ride down on the summer breeze, intertwined fingers and thoughts. smiles so sweet, so wide- we keep our eyes open, looking forward. we sit side by side, we are equal. no longer two seperate entities, but a united spirit that lives beneath the lands. and you take me underground, and here with you, i will tell you my secrets slowly, softly. i will tell you everything- what i thought about when i was three and what i did three minutes ago. how i whisper stay with me before we dream, and how i wake with your name engraved in my thoughts.
in the autumn, beneath the decaying and rotting leaves, we hold them up over ourselves for shelter against the harsh winds. you tell me how everything's dying, and i tell you how we're just beginning to live. and i begin to use my talent of reassurance by making sure my breaths coincide with yours. and with the rise and falls of it all, i am confident you will be there to pull me out of the vacuous space that was once there before. you will rescue me from my former self, you'll save me from what they want me to become.
back underground we go, the snow is too cold and it reminds me of death. i want to live, yet i let the snowflakes land on my eyelashes which forces me to close my eyes. you force them back open and say it's not our time and you squeeze my hand twice. i am tired, but i continue discussing with you the meanings of life, yours, mine, and how we came to existence. you say i was born from the stardust that fell from the first falling star that touched the wind and sea. i say you were born from the first taste of dew and the first kiss afterwards. and i lay my head on your chest near your heart, and i listen and i accidentally fall asleep. you kiss my forehead, my nose, and then my lips softly, barely touching, but i feel them still and i dream about them. i dream about how it will be like when i wake up with you beside me, my legs tangled with yours, your arm around me, and i will feel it. i will feel your warmth even when i'm cold. you fall asleep holding me and you dream about protecting me from the dark.
and i wake up as the sunstained blossom opens with you holding me tightly around my waist. i push the petals over from top of me and stare at the wind's movements while you still cling to me. i think you were afraid of me falling down the stem and hitting the ground, even though that would be impossible to do so. i nudge you gently and cover your face, your neck, and your collarbone with kisses and your eyes flicker open like the birth of a firefly. you dip your hand in some of the nectar and trace a heart with your fingertips on my cheek, smile, and say that you love me. i love you more and we both fall delicately, sliding down the blade of grass and we take our first steps.
and when we go back to the beginning all over again, i will still be by your side.
x03 Tuesday 07 September 2004
10:28 am -- newfoundlove.
you are like the calm sea and the raging fire. your words mean everything to me. i’m the stars and air—that are always there, but not always stirring (unlike the wind, i never change). i will be with you always.
the tides that are controlled by the moon wash over me, acknowledging this new realization of actually feeling that i am someone with a purpose, a reason. and the stars that are controlled by fate bless us and become our good luck charms.
and with every passing night, this love grows stronger and i taste it on my lips and see the after effects. and with every memory created, they are engraved in my mind and palms and i will never forget them. i want to feel this always. i want to explain this to you; it’s impossible. but it’s enough for me to know that you feel the same.
just as the wind treats the land the same, whether mountains or valleys, i will be with you. just as the night still has a sky, whether with clouds or stars, i will be with you. and just as the sea still moves, whether wild or tame, i will be with you.
my love, my home.
this is Newfoundlove...
forevermore.